#gok wai naan yan san fu saaige zi nan ren xin ku (?) - Chinese
dono dansei mo turai. -Japanese
Any man is painful. - English
This is a title of the album of the Cantonese that "A NIU" released in Hong Kong in 2002.
Though this song expresses painful of the man,
and the melody that seems to be A Niu invites sadness, too...
I think that it's only
Eric Moo and
A Niu in Malaysian Chinese,
to release the album of Cantonese in Hong Kong.
Perhaps, I don't think that the singer of Malaysian Chinese descent following appears yet.
(I'm sorry in case of being...)
Daniel, don't you become the third person,
"singer who releases the album of Cantonese in Hong Kong" ?However, because there was a story declared that
the singer in Hong Kong doesn't put out the album of Cantonese for a while recently, too.
So the market in Hong Kong might be severe...
dono dansei mo turai.A work, a home, not going well will happen in the life, too.
Someone comes to want to leave the company in various circumstances, and there might be thinking about job change.
However, it's difficult for present Japan to change job.
It's difficult to find employment ahead of that.
The company isn't requesting someone to be employed newly so much,
and it keeps cutting needless talent.
Though it's good if it's a person who becomes skilled for the company,
but a person not so is embarrassed with finding employment...
The number of young people who work by part-time job,
and exist without finding employment in home has increased in recent Japan.
It has been sometimes taken up by news etc. as a problem of Japan for these several years.
I graduate from the collage in around 1994,
and have been working at once for a certain shop.
Though it's a place in which it's supermarket,
it's a service trade to take notice of in short a lot of guests.
I had a hard time because of the job hunting of year of four of the collage.
Therefore, I assumed that held out by me in the company
that was able to have done the thing managing to join a company.
In about three months, it has changed into one with a bad attitude to me of other regular members.
Especially, man's employee has become me like "Leave this company!".
The tiredness of the foot cannot be taken because it's work to stand almost and every day is spent during work hour.
And I sometimes became timid the word of the criticism from the regular member.
However, auntie and the student who is working by part-time are good people,
and I was sometimes encouraged by them, "Keep it working".
I was restraining feelings that it wanted to pull the pin.
The accident happened in about ten months.
A certain day, though I went from the apartment to the company by bicycle,
the tire of my bicycle had blowed out on.
I was shocked, and was understood that there was no air in the tire when taking a ride on a bicycle.
The bicycle was in bicycle-parking space, and was by which the guest also stoped bicycle there.
I thought that it might be the guest someone's mischief.
I returned by the hand of the bicycle pushing walking from the company to the apartment for ten minutes.
At the next day lunchtime, the tire was repaired in the bicycle shop in the vicinity.
However, two days later, bicycle tires blowed out again in the return of work.
The repair expense is 1000 yen.
Will it be a price of the place for which one CD can be bought in Malaysia?
(1000 yen = about RM33)The criminal has voluntarily introduced by himself to me in several days.
Employee's two men approached me, and they said.
"Has not the tire of your bicycle blowed out recently? We did it."These two people are the person who had said to me since before, "Leave the company!".
It is said,
"ijime" in Japan.
In English "ijime" is
"ill-treatment" or "bulling".I think that the thing that any country criticizes others exists.
I had been heard that "ijime" of Japan is malicious...
I felt anger for the thing that they had done. My eyes stared at them.
However, I was not able to say anything...
I was not able to be said to two men,
"Neither such thing nor you are shameful?"I thought,
"Are these people might be happy do such thing?" I don't have the courage that can be originally answered back...
Even if I answered back them, it didn't seem to solve "ijime".
However, it was scary with their further attacks of me...
The person who had the part-time job said,
"I don't understand why they painfully hit you...". "ijime" is said that there is a cause also in bullying only of no bullied side it.
They were bad, but I also think that there was a bad part in me.
Their attacks disappeared only in the word.
On 10th month, in the warehouse in the shop,
they rounded gloves (became like the ball) and threw out the thing to me.
saying
"Leave this company early!"It had stricken my body by one degree...
There was a thing that had to return in the store at once after there was such a thing, too.
I was desperate at such time when the thing was asked by the guest who existed at once in the store,
and I received it with a usual face.
I wanted to cry in the mind.
When the guest parted, I was asked me in the mind,
"Wasn't my behavior a little strange?"
My mind had been appealed in those days, "It's a limit".
As for me, it turned in resignation to the manager on 11th month,
and I left the company next month.
Though I received the interview for finding employment in the various company afterwards,
but, it was not possible to find employment during half a year.
(I put the following finding employment ahead without writing. )
Job hunting in Japan is severe for ten years.
To tell the truth, the event more than the bicycle happened, too.
However, I don't write here because I don't speak the thing to nobody either.
Man/woman who is doing or a painful experience might be more than I experience.
However, I think whether men are more painful than women even what occupation it is.
There might be a lot of things that Daniel who is the singer is painful,
and I think that there are a lot of painful things in the future.
However, I want Daniel to hold out getting it over even if there is a painful thing. When finding employment for the first time, I had a lover (he is a husband today).
Though his asking the grumble became a stress cancellation.
he said, "I want always to meet",
and he mostly came to my apartment when my holiday was understood.
Though his behavior was glad, sometimes his behavior had become a stress...
The time spent alone was necessary for me.
At that time, I liked Chinese pops.
I listened well the song of the Cantonese that had become popular in around 1994.
I was a fan of Leon Lai. (he is singer of Hong Kong)
(watasi wa Leon Lai no fan desita.)It was enjoyment three times a year,
that I went to Tokyo alone on holiday of work,
and bought CD in Tower Records in Shibuya.
I think that I'll write of CD in Japan next time.